There come certain times where one's beliefs are challenged by something that crosses their path. Whether it's a particularly difficult loss, being confronted by some deeply resonant truth, or just having a curve ball thrown your way, these moments can completely change the way that you approach your immediate future.
I suspect that I have just reached such a crossroads, and have a few directions that I could take, should I so choose. One rather important symbolic change has already taken place, a sacrifice of sorts to the gods as a sign that I am ready to do what must be done in order to improve my current life, but there are many others that await me. This small (well, small to most, to me it's absolutely huge and frankly a bit terrifying, even though it was accomplished in a very short and decisive window of time) change is only the beginning, but indeed all journeys start somewhere.
This one started two years ago, unbeknownst to me, when I would cross paths with people who were of like mind and like opinion in regards to the spiritual world and how to best approach it. At the time, I was with my now ex-fiancee, who would prove to be a massive source of conflict in the future, but I could already see that situation start to fray. No, this isn't going in the obvious direction. I would ultimately leave my fiancee behind and strike out on my own, with the help of my dear friends -- my true tuisteachta -- and get in touch with a higher spirituality, one that we all continue to explore and question at each turn to gain a greater understanding.
We have meditated on the gods, on the spirits, and on the nature of energy work, but one undercurrent remained constant for me. Change must begin somewhere in order to reach my goals. Well, so be it. I have made the offering and devoted myself to this new path entirely. Let's see where it takes me.
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